When is enough, enough?

I have a father, whom I can best describe by telling you to watch the movie "Beautiful Minds" He is like a Chamelion, only in human form. It is because of him that my mother, brother, and myself re-located to California in April of 1998. People may not hink that I am strong in my faith in God, and what the scriptures say, but I am. And God says to forgive. I have forgiven my father for the awful things hes done, but I will never forget. Untill now I have trusted what he says is true, I believe him when everyone has told me not to. I was warned by everyone who loves and cares for me that he wouldnt come through once again, and that I would be hurt for the umteenth time, but I chose not to listen. I would make excuses for this man who God chose to be my father. My mind cant even start to try and fathum how someone can be like he is. He says what he knows people want ot hear. He does what he thinks will make people closer to him. The man he is today is not the man he was raised to be, or the man eberyone knew. He lives in a false reality full of twisted lies, betrayel, and manipulation. He and my mother have not been married since 1999, yet he still does everything in his power to bash on her, put her down, and trys to ruin her life. WHY is my question. He beat her, he cheated on her, he almost killed her, yet on his myspace page he claims it was the other way around. He has even led his current wife to believe his garbage. He has always claimed he loves my brother and myself, but not once has he flown out here to visit, not for our Graduation, not even for my Wedding, his Only Daughter. He never sent us anything we had to leave behind that we asked for. Hed buy us things that ment nothing to us when he did decide to send something. He never sticks to his word with either of us. He wont even allow us to visit, fearing we will tell his wife who he really is, which arent our intentions, he is the one who will be held accountable at the gates of heaven if he infact makes it there. I know it is a sin to have hatred in your heart, but this man God made my father gives me alot of that in my heart. Why is it that he cant just be okay with the fact that my mother is BEAUTIFUL and LOVING, and has provided my brother and with the best life she could. We turned out to be GREAT people because of HER. Why does he feel he has to lie and act like he is God, like he has "people" that are linked to EVERYTHING. He lied to our family when our Grandmother died on Christmas Day, saying we didnt want to come out for the services, yet told us there wasnt going to be ANYTHING going on per my Grandmothers "wishes". The list could go on and on and on. I have FINALLY said, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I am Happily Married to my Bestfriend, my life is great, my brother is an AMAZING Man, and my mother IS THE WIND BENEATH MY WINGS. We dont need him in our lives lie'n about EVERYTHING, even things we could care less about. I cant live my life the way it is when he is in it. He doesnt even deserve to be. Saying this and getting this out is one of the hardest things an only daughter could ever have to do. God only gives us 1 earthly father, and unfortunitly my "father" failed that mission in his life, and he will live with that(or he wont even care) the rest of his life. My brother wont stop talking to him. He feels nomatter what my father does doesnt give him the right to write him off. I feel by me cremoving him from my life will only make me a better person, because I truly cant handle him and all that comes along with him any more. Regardless if that makes me a bad person or not. Enough is enough. I shouldnt be the only one being true in this relationship, and minds games and lies arent things I want in my life. So I am asking for prayer for this lost lost man, for myself, my brother, and my mother. He has hurt to many people in his day, and for once he is nolonger able to hurt me anymore. From here on out he will continue to bash and hurt my mother, and lie to my brother, which will hurt me, but he wont be in my life any more than that. He will never be able to be a grandpa, a father, or a fahter in law. And that was a decision he decided to make. The man I call my Father made it to heaven in November of 2002, and is waiting for me, his 3rd daughter for when my time to join him comes!!

Weird/Random facts about me!!

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Werid/Random Facts about me.......

1) I perfer my hair to be up if its curly, but if I straighten it, I like it down or half in a clip!!
2) On occasion I swallow my gum!!
3) I dont have a nail on my left hand ring finger.(your favorite finger when your married)
4) I have lost 15 pounds, and have 20-25 more to go!!
5) I am addicted to Big Brother!!!
6) When I drink soda, if it goes flatt at all, even slightly, or if it gets warm, I wont drink it.
7) I LOVE Artichoke/Spinich dip, its YUMMY!!!!